I haven't written a lot lately! I'm just too tired! Tired if chemo, tired of fatigue, tired of pain..... the lot of it! However, I am hanging on tight and have started to do tiny things at home, function a little bit extra which has lifted me. Some days are bed days and others a … Continue reading Double it up!! →

I believe quite a few folk escaped this weekend. It was like enough is enough. With great thought and precaution, we just upped and landed ourselves in Center Parcs, just an hour from home but a getaway all the same! Planning is not in my dictionary any more and luckily we have friends who jumped … Continue reading A Weekend Away…… →

I know I have been a big moany moanhead for a while!! Friends probably sick of it but my nearest and dearest have really stuck by me and listened with patience and helped me through it. My dear neighbours have kept me going with bbq's and tea in the driveway!!! Its been tough but when … Continue reading A Better Week…. →

Let me tell you about my day.... Woke up with back pain, got myself to the dentist! A whole random ordeal but got a filling replaced by a reluctant dentist since I'm on chemo. The idiots in the goverment have different rules for the elderly and those with cancer because it doesnt affect them directly … Continue reading Lifewave patching…. →

But music makes me sad! I am surrounded by real flowers in my garden borders, bouquets in my house and artificial and silk flowers in most of my rooms!! You cant get enough! I need to share.... I do spend time taking pics and arranging and deadheading! The borders at the front of my house … Continue reading Flowers make me happy… →

I am strong I am a fighter I am fearless I am a warrior I am not scared I am powerful I am at peace with myself and my world I can do this I am done with my cancer It no longer serves a purpose within me I no longer need this burden in … Continue reading Another CT Scan…… →

Like I needed anything else.... like I needed another bullet to my head.... I'll spare you most the details. Sick of it all really..... literally! Thats what I've been up to this week in the sweltering heat!! Literally lying like a deadweight unable to walk, move, eat, sleep. Awake every hour back on pain meds … Continue reading Another Infection…. →

I dont ever want to say that I feel ok or that Ive had a good day. If folk ask me and I say Im good, many assume thats it, shes well! It doesnt work like that. I can be ok one day and a complete deadweight the next. I have trash days all over … Continue reading Bloody Side Effects →

Guess what..... I had treatment today!! What a bloomin surprise. I've been missing in action for a number of weeks and realise I worried a few folk. Well you were right to be worried! I hit rock bottom and went 60 feet under and got buried in a big grey heavy cobweb that almost finished … Continue reading Here I am…… →

Another week done. For me with its ups and down. I have spent the entire week battling with my thoughts. My brain not giving up. Lots of thoughts running through my head. All the what ifs. This is not usually me so a difficult week. I had 3 good fairly active days. Well my active … Continue reading #Atleastyoudonthavecancer →

Is anyone else feeling a bit like they are in an all inclusive resort now?!!! Its like all other focuses are moving away and we have all this time thinking about food. What we are cooking and what are we snacking on!! Kitchen is just there all day, I am in and out all day … Continue reading The All Inclusive….. →

A hesitant start to the week having to go in for treatment but can safely say, all my appointments are now done, I can rest for the next 3 weeks without being forced to venture out. I am trying to push it all back now so I can just get on and it doesn't take … Continue reading Cycle 4 done……onwards! →

Before I tackle the c words...... where am I now? Well, to be honest, I've been in chronic, chronic pain for a few days.... weekend was particularly bad. On round the clock painkillers all weekend, heat pads, hot water bottle and hot baths. I'm just managing with few 'ok' hours in between but when its … Continue reading Now there are two ‘c’ words…… →

Every day, well most days..... I have lists all around me. To be honest, it started with my meds on a strict regimen as to avoid drug interactions, underdosing, overdosing, pain management and basically functioning as best I can in a day. Now with the kids home, I don't want to roll around in pyjamas … Continue reading Make a List….. →

Will you slow down now? I have watched folk around me rush about their daily lives. Needing to do so many jobs in a day. Need to be here, pick up this, drop into town, meet someone, make several phone calls. All of it! Over 2 years ago, my life stopped point blank and I … Continue reading The Realisation…. →