I am strong I am a fighter I am fearless I am a warrior I am not scared I am powerful I am at peace with myself and my world I can do this I am done with my cancer It no longer serves a purpose within me I no longer need this burden in … Continue reading Another CT Scan…… →

Like I needed anything else.... like I needed another bullet to my head.... I'll spare you most the details. Sick of it all really..... literally! Thats what I've been up to this week in the sweltering heat!! Literally lying like a deadweight unable to walk, move, eat, sleep. Awake every hour back on pain meds … Continue reading Another Infection…. →

I dont ever want to say that I feel ok or that Ive had a good day. If folk ask me and I say Im good, many assume thats it, shes well! It doesnt work like that. I can be ok one day and a complete deadweight the next. I have trash days all over … Continue reading Bloody Side Effects →

Guess what..... I had treatment today!! What a bloomin surprise. I've been missing in action for a number of weeks and realise I worried a few folk. Well you were right to be worried! I hit rock bottom and went 60 feet under and got buried in a big grey heavy cobweb that almost finished … Continue reading Here I am…… →

Another week done. For me with its ups and down. I have spent the entire week battling with my thoughts. My brain not giving up. Lots of thoughts running through my head. All the what ifs. This is not usually me so a difficult week. I had 3 good fairly active days. Well my active … Continue reading #Atleastyoudonthavecancer →

Is anyone else feeling a bit like they are in an all inclusive resort now?!!! Its like all other focuses are moving away and we have all this time thinking about food. What we are cooking and what are we snacking on!! Kitchen is just there all day, I am in and out all day … Continue reading The All Inclusive….. →

A hesitant start to the week having to go in for treatment but can safely say, all my appointments are now done, I can rest for the next 3 weeks without being forced to venture out. I am trying to push it all back now so I can just get on and it doesn't take … Continue reading Cycle 4 done……onwards! →

Before I tackle the c words...... where am I now? Well, to be honest, I've been in chronic, chronic pain for a few days.... weekend was particularly bad. On round the clock painkillers all weekend, heat pads, hot water bottle and hot baths. I'm just managing with few 'ok' hours in between but when its … Continue reading Now there are two ‘c’ words…… →

Every day, well most days..... I have lists all around me. To be honest, it started with my meds on a strict regimen as to avoid drug interactions, underdosing, overdosing, pain management and basically functioning as best I can in a day. Now with the kids home, I don't want to roll around in pyjamas … Continue reading Make a List….. →

Will you slow down now? I have watched folk around me rush about their daily lives. Needing to do so many jobs in a day. Need to be here, pick up this, drop into town, meet someone, make several phone calls. All of it! Over 2 years ago, my life stopped point blank and I … Continue reading The Realisation…. →

A busy week for me!! Playing a bit of hospital bingo once more.....did I get full house...... no not yet!! Firstly bloody corona!! It has got me proper paranoid, scared and just annoyed!! I haven't come this far to have everything wrecked by this bloody covid virus. Lots of uncertainty and worry hyped up by … Continue reading Results are in again…. →

I am going to start with the funny part!!! I still get chatted up on insta fairly frequently!!! This latest guy doesnt even know if we live in the same country and neither do I and I didn't bother to even find out!!! It keeps me amused though!!! 🤣🤣🤣 So back to the point of … Continue reading ABC….CBD – A Direct Correlation??? →

It is a known fact that having cancer doesn't just affect a patient but the entire family. The last few months have taken their toll on myself and Gurveer. So last week a group of Gurv's friends, who have been his support network for the last 2 years were visiting Dubai to celebrate a significant … Continue reading Dubai and Paying it it Forward… →

This week we had an argument in the Cheema household! It didn't last too long but threw a host of emotions up for one reason or another The argument was between the boys and I will give you the jist of it!! On a recent birthday, a video game was purchased. Inside the cover of … Continue reading You Wore My Shorts….!!! →

A cold sunday but the sun is out, I love sitting indoors on a cold day with the sun beaming over me through the window, keeping me warm. I sit and I sit, I wait for my storm to pass but this stubborn storm doesn't seem to want to piss off just yet. February is … Continue reading March Sun…. →