Something happened yesterday and we were all left jaws hanging! Us, meaning Ana, Chris, Ivana, Selome and me. We also have Alex and Vlado who are also here in Veduna right now, artist and chef respectively who heard the story the next day !! I bring you the chain of events as they happened as … Continue reading The Overdose ! →

A few people had said before I left for this that they can't wait to hear all about my trip.... well this is that blog and the next one is part 2 of that blog too!! Before I came, I felt like I wanted something to happen, spiritually or other. There was to be a … Continue reading My Special Place in the World. →

Well you know I said I had a good strong day on Thursday after my herceptin, well I obviously spoke too soon as I was throwing up until 3am in the morning. Gaviscon is vile and I dont know how on earth people drink it. It is so gungy.... probably made me even worse, I … Continue reading Veduna…..we have arrived! →

Today an even stronger day. I am suddenly feeling human again. Woke up very early for an hour of prayer, followed by another hour of prayer while I lay on my biomat. I will be away until tuesday so wanted to get as much in as possible before I go. I finally managed to walk. … Continue reading Herceptin No 3…… done! →

Stronger Sal! I've had so many people check up on me this week. It has been a rough few weeks but I am pleased to report that Sal is feeling a lot stronger day by day! Making progress in small steps. Some people take things for granted and don't realise how cancer can affect the … Continue reading Stronger….. →

I don't usually get anxious as such.... like really panic... like when you can't control it. I have various things that I can do to control it and my day literally will revolve around not being anxious!!!! This weekend, more sh1t happened. I had to start these chemo tabs. Everything weighed me down a bit. … Continue reading Chemo Anxiety →

Did I sleep last night..... no I didn't!! I'm not sure but think I got second wind in the night! Got excited about my little knitting project and my head calmed down a bit but then I wanted to be awake and in the moment. A happy place. My mind a bit more calmer. I … Continue reading Week 2 – Herceptin →

Well how have I been.....? Horrendous! Had a terrible week. Sick again, tired, scared, emotional, fear, pain...... all piled on top of me this week. There is just too much going on right now. Its just so damn tough. Everyone is offering so much help, support, messages, food, helping with kids, I just sat on … Continue reading I’m just here….. knitting away!! →

I bring this blog, part of it written a few weeks ago but very significant for the last 15 or so days. Complete harsh and rough few weeks have been had with added mental torture bringing stress and anxiety. We seem to have turned it around slightly, well I think that every morning. The mornings … Continue reading A Harsh 2 Weeks and the Role of a Carer…. →

Today I started my next line of treatment. Got my herceptin and very timely as I don't think we can delay treatment any further. Herceptin is a targeted monoclonal antibody. It attacks cancer cells that have a HER2 receptor and leaves other cells alone. My cancer cells showed positive for HER2 so everything crossed for … Continue reading Herceptin or Prizegiving Day! →

So I hinted a few times prior to my big walk, on 1st Sept that something was not quite right in my belly! I will start repeating stuff in my blogs as talking to folk, it seems there is a lot of learning which is my aim in writing this honest and frank account of … Continue reading How much must one suffer? →

What an incredible day!! 1st September, a day I won't ever forget! I will admit, I was so incredibly worried about the day and more, how my body would feel afterwards! I hadn't had the best sleep the night before and the last two days were a bit worrying in terms of my energy. I … Continue reading Walkathon – Best Day Ever!!! →

Organising a charity event for me doesn't require too much power! Most of the work is done over the phone. Just takes effort to keep sending reminders, creating a buzz, building the momentum! Getting folk there but I am pleased with all the support and it should be an epic day!! I just need to … Continue reading Multitasking but Stable !!! →

Once you are diagnosed with cancer, one of your immediate instincts is to protect your close family and friends. Protect them from the truth, try to not cause alarm and panic. With recent events aka Lanyard gate, that most of you heard about via my facebook post, I was so flustered and managed to blurt … Continue reading Nobody Panic…. →

Just 3 hours from London! We have reached another paradise! Gozo is a real place!! I didn't just make it up!! Friends said.... enjoy Malta.... I am not in Malta..... Malta is a whole world away, built up towns, modern cars, proper roads! Plans were to do 1 day in Malta but after reaching Gozo, … Continue reading Gozo …..It’s a real place!! →