As the year draws to a close bringing a time for reflection……as we embark on a new journey, new beginnings …… no no no I’m kidding!!! No one is barking or embarking!! We are not on a ship! I’m just sitting here in my cosy bed thinking I need to get up and move!!! No reflecting and no drama over resolutions!! Sod all that….my year has pretty much been mapped out already!!

I’ve have so much support around me, and people do ask me, how do you cope? How do you find the strength and courage to carry on? How can you stay so positive? It is the same for anyone who has faced a trauma in their lives, whatever it may be. It is no easy task to get up each and every morning and clear every fear or sadness that crept back into your head at night. I am no happy clappy crazy woman in denial of what is happening in my life. I am very real, I just choose which issue I will deal with that day, if any at all! I have plenty of time to worry but, not right now. I really want to just enjoy today for what it is.

So today, do I deal my fears about what my future holds, or maybe with the fact that I am utterly exhausted beyond belief and I’ve written the day off already OR just that I’m in a fair bit of actual pain and I can just take some paracetamol and there you go….. get on with that day as it is here right in front if me and it is all mine!

Think about the choices you have in front of you…. often in these situations, there isn’t much choice other than to put right foot in front of left and just keep walking. Always keep hold of that thought….. what is the other option? What can I do to turn this day around?

Well, actually hat, gloves, scarf, coat, boots, thermal underwear…. tissues for runny nose as soon as you step out but you know what I mean !!

I wish, I could plan days out and birthdays and holidays but at this point in my life I can’t. Suck it up girl and move on! No point screwing over things that are not in your control. Allows us to be all wild and spontaneous !! The good days will always outweigh the bad and when I’m good, I am really good…. and funny so I focus on that!

For me, I am now facing a lifetime struggle. How many more days should I waste on being down and angry or sad? Yep….for me…. a big fat zero!! None of them, not a single one! I choose to be grateful for every single precious day that I have been given and if you start your day with that thought …. but the deepest, deepest version of that thought …. you will make the right choice for that day.

I am satisfied with everything I have today, there is nothing more I could want or need. I am really blessed with my beautiful family and grateful for my lovely friends and all the support I receive therefore I am at peace. Of course, I wish for good health but I have my faith and that will also come with time.

Sometimes you really have to step back and just take it just one day at a time.

Enjoy this festive time with your loved ones…… I will too x

6 thoughts on “Choices

  1. I think flip flops are apt for all the bloomin rain we have had.
    Stay as positive my little Sis and yes I agree that our faith will take care of the rest๐Ÿ’•.๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’•

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  2. You are truly inspirational. Magic happens when we don’t give up, Universe always falls in love with a stubborn heart. My sincere appeal to heaven is to give you continued strength and courage to be victorious in this battle. Wishing you good health and more good health.

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  3. Hi, I think I might have not to Brunel with you in 1997. We met in a pottery class and got on instantly. You did medical biology with sumairah Mirza ans I did Maths with Shaista and Rinku .
    Itโ€™s me Sunil Patel class of 1999.
    Iโ€™m assuming you married โ€œBig Guyโ€ or BG as youโ€™d refer to him in code . Iโ€™m so sorry to hear about your story. Just wanted to send my regards .


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